O' my Gosh!

So we made it here. We are here in Missouri...13 freakin hours later....A bit slap happy! We got here at 2:30 a.m. I will have you know, no fighting...well only with Macee...A very long trip...good to see family...I am currently in candle heaven...My sister in law is a very gifted candle maker...she is the Martha Stewart of the primative type...I love it, I love it...yes I am coming home with lots of new candles...I am sure you all will enjoy it...so on another note...
Life has been hard this week. After getting home tues night from the hospital with Macee...three rounds of iv fluids...we get home at 1:00 or so...she is feeling much better...then the very next night I drive 3 hours to go see Rachel, three hours back...then again on Sat. I drive 3 hours (6 total again) alone....I then leave for Missiouri...so my body says "No more car riding"!
It seems as though Rachel is near her time to meet with our Lord. We had some really great visits...I cannot explain how hard it was to see your seventeen old best pal cousin...near her time of death. She was so sweet, she grabbed me as I was leaving and said "I promise I will give your mom a big hug for you..." O course I sobbed...We had some good talks about what heavenwill be like...we all cried together...We laughed...we seized the moment holding hands...we cried some more. I touched her hair and her face...permentaly scetching the feeling of her life into my mind...memories are such a gift...I am so thankful that the Lord allows for us to hold memories so close to our hearts...It will be soon they say for Rachel. Her body organs are shutting down. She is not scared to die...can't wait to see my mom she says and my grandma..of course how does a 17 year old prepare to meet her maker...she is so excited on one hand and scared only to leave those of us behind. She gave me one of her rings and a necklace...forever my treasures...Please pray for her family. They are so hurting...Her brother Andy is a gem...so gentle and loving to her. My uncle has lost his mom, dad, step dad, sister, brother, and now his daughter...all in about 4 years. He is what is left...he was the youngest son. He knows Jesus. He is mad. He is in pain. O Lord I cry out...please heal my family. Draw them near to you. Be ever so present....Be so real and so giant to them.
So anyhow...here we are...looking forward to a couple great days with the fam. before we head home on that hellish trip. Pray for us. Over