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There has just been so much lately that I have not blogged...not sure what to say or how to really put my feelings into writing....
Yes, Praise God that Macee's test results came back negative for Lupus. The doctor seems to think that it is an allergic reaction....But we are celebrating once again for continued growth and healing over her little body.

I was able to see my Aunt Abby and Uncle Bill...(Emma's mom and dad) from Arizona this past week. It was so great to see them. It is amazing to see how God is working in their lives. The boys are so cute and Emma was desperately missed. We had some times of tears but also we laughed so hard. It was a bittersweet time...

This summer has been difficult in a lot of ways and so absolutely amazing in others. My dad and step mom have been going through some serious issues. My dad resigned from preaching due to a relationship that was going on outside of his marriage. Needless to say this has been a difficult time for my dad, as well as my family. Please continue to pray for him. There is just so much to it, and so much pain. I am not always sure how to help, or how to be real, or how to be honest, and how to be "all" that seems to be needed at the time. I have grieved over the past few years because I lost my mother, and soon there after felt like I had also lost my father. Yes he is still living however the man and relationship that I knew is for sure gone. Don't get me wrong the relationship I have with him is still good. I have no doubt that he loves Dawn and I ...Furthermore I would have been completely a wreck even a year ago about all of this...and yes I do hurt and have pain, deep pain, BUT....

it is amazing to see how the Holy Spirit can sweep in and take over. I feel as if this summer I actually know and have felt what it means to live a spirit filled life. I have relinquished my father, (just as we do Macee) to the Lord each day and I have such a peace. I have had great friends who have been there to encourage me to stand strong and live in the peace the Lord has so greatly given me. We even did a 24 hour prayer vigil for dad...it is amazing to see what the community together can do. There were people that I do not even know that were praying for my dad...it is amazing what his church can do when we are bound together by spirit...commuinity and faith...(simple church does work for me :)

Anyhow the Lord continues to teach me through his word, through situations, through seeing his hand orchestrate everyday...it amazes me how I see him daily. Which also makes me a little nervous...it seems that the summers are such hard times for my family, but it also seems like I learn so much and grow so much that I hate to think of having to go back to school...getting busy and getting busy and....well you see, I walk hand in hand with my Jesus daily, and I don't want anything to come in between that. Not my dad, my job, my family...I have finally put Jesus first in my life...how do sometimes we get so far away.....anyhow, it has been a purging and cleaning kind of thing...I am happy school is almost here, I just want to see great things there, but I soon realize my community and my friends are not with me, I am put out there all on my own...I know that Lord will use me, and that he is in control...anyhow there is just so much to stuff right now...

Last night...I was putting away some dishes...I saw this beautiful sight....I asked Chris to come outside with me. There under this huge, full, beautiful, bright, red moon we stood, celebrating his glorious creation. I felt loved not only by my heavenly father, but also by my best friend, my Wesley. It was priceless...and all the worries melted away as I was wrapped in their arms...and the princess went off to sleep with sweet dreams and lived happily ever after....sort of...:)