s.d.v.

So here is Sara Dilbone Version of "What's up with the dilbone's"...

-got an interesting phone call late last night..finally got someone who would be willing to talk...

-was told tomorrow, which is today now, would be Chris's last day to lead worship...

-Chris and I are / were in shock...

-we are ready and willing to leave whenever, just was not ready to be "asked" to be done...was told they are doing us a favor...so much to teach and pass along for Chris on short notice...stressful on the folks who are now taking over...they are newly weds, she is in her first year of teaching and now they have a week to learn the ropes of a detailed position...

-some band members feel confused...

-so hard to process all of this the night before and be okay for church today...cried a lot...

-transition is never easy...even when you feel called to leave...it's not easy when you are told when to leave...

-Chris wanted to be there to bridge the gap for the people taking over, easing the transition, however our involvement with Powerhouse made the "asking" part a little easier.

-am ready for the transition, but love bg naz...having a hard time letting go, God's will or not for us to leave is not the question...it's being asked to leave before we felt it was time, and then saying goodbye...

-so many people, then the band, us (macee and I), and Chris........

Not mad at anyone...just, well...confused...not sure I understand the timing thing...was told the timing just got away...that's cool...like I said, not mad, just in processing mode...not mad at anyone or anything....it's time for us to go...just wish things would of happened a little different...sad....feel loss...but we can always go back and visit...still feel a bit of loss...the thought of people talking about us and not asking us what we think does hurt a little...I truly am not mad...not trying to point fingers...this is just my way to get it all out...sorry if it has to be where people can read it. Like I said, I love bgnaz and the people there...most of them anyway:)...just hating this..the way this has all gone...not just with us but the whole thing...am praying for God to be with all ministries, all situations and be glorified through it all. Not writing this to complain, or be mean, or any other negative way...just having a hard time...am learning what trusting God really means all over again...

Am so very proud of the man of God my wonderful husband has been...up front and honest, real and open...willing to serve and help out, calm and understanding about all of it...honorable when he discusses it with others asking questions, and genuine when praying for Gods blessing on bgnaz...does not feel he "knows" the right way...does feel passionate about our new journey, does NOT condemn those who feel different...thank you Lord for him. For him being the head of this household, and your servant...for him teaching me...pray for us. For bgnaz, for the band....

Pray against gossip, slander and confusion...

Part of the reason for writing this publicly is so that people don't think we just up and left the band and W and H just hangin'. That is not what we are about...tears coming now...pray for us. Thank you bgnaz folks for your love...this part of the journey is the hardest...see you one last time next week...we will be back to visit i'm sure...see ya...

sorry if I stepped on any toes by writing this...that was not my intentions.