Hello big bad momma jomma list....

So I have wanted to blog but have had so much to say that I just keep putting it off...the easiest way to do it is to make a list...so say Hello to my wonderful list.
1st off...I have on orange chocolate body butter from the "Body Shop"...it smells so good. I want to roll in it....
2. I am amazed at Macee's artistic interest and it thrills me....I was/am a big art guru...
3. I realized this week that I have been grieving not only for the loss of my mother but the loss of the relationship I had with my dad. I miss us....
4. I realized how very much I want a relationship with my mother-in-law and how much I have no clue how to make one with her.
5. I realized how much I would love to sit down with my mom and ask her questions about my childhood. And ask her how she felt about certain things, and what things made her worry about me as a kid and what kind of things made her feel really cool, and how I was in like 1st grade and kindergarten....etc....
6. I took the week off of working out...I missed it...needed time to be with Macee.
7. Took Macee to the public Library...it was awesome. We had fun. She is almost 3 and has her own library card...cool beans.
8. I had a great conversation with my pal Denise (Bevis) and had a chance to share my heart. She is a great friend and we just shared with each other and cried. I often tell her she reminds me of my mom. I want her to see Jesus in me.. the sad part is that I know she see's my true colors which are not always the prettiest.....pray that she will still see Christ in me.....I know she does because we talk a lot about it, I just want it to be more than that.
9. I hate poop, kids that gag themselves to barf and the smell of 4th grade boy farts.
10. Important info: Bus 22 hit a skunk today...when we were loading the bus after school the tires still smelled like Skunk...gross....
11. Did I say I smell good though??
12. "Raising Helen" is a great movie....just don't watch it when you are sad and missing a passed loved one. It was great though...Kerri make sure if you watch it that you have tissues....:)
13. Kerri's blog about Mikey and the comments left by her parents made me feel so blessed. I am too loved by that same God..that is cool. I prayed that very night of Mikeys accident at 3:00 am for Mikey and praise the Lord that he is alive. The Lords word won't return void...I will keep praying for him.
14. There are a lot of marriages in our realm that are falling apart. I am a fixer and it is hard to see it go on.
15. My husband looks good bald.
16. I love to laugh....a lot...everyday....
17. Pray for these four names, Rachel, Shirley, Meghan, Kayla. Meghan and Kayla are twins that were born to a friend of ours. They are 3 1/2 months early and both weigh around a pound...they have had brain bleeds etc. These little tiny bodies need our prayers...we believe and have lived this miracle. Please join me in prayer.
18. I love Jesus.....and David Crowder:)
19. I feel really blessed to be who I am and where I am.
20. I am finally done....I hope you are as glad as I am. Good night.
TGIF!...almost

Howdy.....it's quiet in here.....

Ahhhhhh....Yes sir re bob...I am home from school today.....I am soooooo sad.....NOT!
I have a doctors appointment today to get my band tightened....when I made the appointment the choices were to go at 8:30 or 10:30....well I started thinking about my day at school and my schedule....so I choose the 10:30...not enough time to go in the the morning for a 1/2 day and not enough left to go after.....so yes...I get a doctor day....and I love it.
Macee went to the babysitter...the last time I did this I kept her home....we had a blast until I actually had to drag her into the doctors office with me screaming....so needless to say....I am here alone......did I say how much I love it.....I never in my whole life thought I would enjoy alone time..............
So the David Crowder concert was so totally awesome.....Chris and I had a wonderful time. Dani our pal stayed the night here with Macee....Dani..You have no idea how special it was for us to be able to hang out together...we needed that...Thank you so much for being a servant to us and for loving Macee like you do..even the times when she is bratty....Anywho..it was a long night. We got home at 2:00 a.m. and still got up at 5:45 to get ready for work. Chris was so funny the whole time. I felt like we were dating again...I fell in love the most when I first met Chris with his sense of humor....and at 1:30 in the morning..everything is even funnier.....David was looking as fine as always...(just a little side note):)And no I did not get to grab his butt.....in case you were wondering....and yes I am joking and yes Chris knows I have issues....:)
I have been really taking time to reflect on myself the last few days. As most of you know I am a very bubbly person and love to laugh and joke etc. But there are times when I purposefully decide to just quiet down a little.....then I start getting from people..."What's wrong?"..."what's your problem"...and nothing is wrong, I just have to slow down and slow my mind down and my actions.......I need inner time to regroup...I hate it though because since then people think because I am quiet that something is wrong....I suppose that is why I am explaining it. Sometimes when I am quiet there is something wrong...but right now there is not....there are a lot of things on my heart right now....I am pondering..which never happens with me...I either feel a certain way or I don't. Pondering and contemplation are a new thing for me. I wouldn't call it analyzing...you know how I feel about being analytical...just thinking about life and how I want to live and how I want the Lord to be in my life etc. It is sorta the move from the arm of chair 2 onto the arm of chair 1 if you know what I am saying. I am teetering on edge of them both and figuring a way to stay on the arm of chair one before I just dive right onto that chair 1 cushion...anyhow, the Lord is good, and I am falling deeper in love with him each day. I am scared of this journey..but then again fear does not come from the Lord. As Chris and I always say..."It'll be alright.....I better go enough about me...Have a good one....

Slow me down Lord!

So...here I am the blogger slacker....I have missed taking time to blog, life has been a whirl wind and non-stop. I have prayed that the Lord slow me down, slow us down Lord.....Things are good. But, we have however had something to do every night of the week and I am ready for that to stop. This week Chris was gone every night with church stuff, and then I still was trying to get some workouts in etc....Macee was/is in the process of being potty trained...any pointers anyone? Actually she is doing really well. As we speak not an accident yet today...she is taking her first nap with the big girl panties on.....so we were in Kohls today, she is screaming at me, "I want the princess panties mommy"...at the top of her lungs, they were 1/2 price so I got the darn panties......In the case of potty training I have found that being consistent is the key.
Jersey girl and I have been having some really good times, good talks and stuff. If you read this Jersey, I love you and appreciate you. I know we joke about you being a mother to me....so many times when we are together, you do such a good job of just letting me be myself. There are times I just need to be cherished and valued and not feel dumb about it. You are so good at doing that for me. Thank you for letting me be a kid around you... and making me laugh...even if it is about stage 1 p.....well you know what I am saying....I truly appreciate you. Thanks.
So, I am now married to a skin head. Yes, he shaved his head. One of my other purchases at Kohls was a skull cap for the big dufus. I love his head though..it's kinda sexy.....I hate his earrings though...right now he is wearing black plugs....eeww...yuck, I don't like them... anyhow, it is a little shocking at times when I forget that he is shaved.....
I love fall, and it is definitely fall here in bg...it is 43 degrees out today and is suppose to be 70 by Thursday....
Gathering has been going good.....it has been great and we have really enjoyed our time together. We had our first really good time of prayer last Monday night. Among other things we were praying for one of our very favorite teens and his life with Christ....his is an awesome kid. Pray for him. We call him Lamby....
So the big news for the day...you have to imagine me screaming this at the top of my lungs and going ....wooooohooooo....I am going to see my boyfriend tomorrow night.....o baby....I can't wait...and this time when I go to get his autograph...I will grab his scrawny little a... butt I mean....On a serious note, Chris got us tickets and I cannot wait....we won't be getting home until like 3 in the morning....and then are planning on going into work the next day.....ahhhhhhh...it's so worth it......Well I better get out of here. I think I will actually take some time to put my feet up and watch some tv. Have a good one....Today is BG homecoming....
Go BG!!!!

Slow me down Lord!

"Re-entry"

So Chris got home safe...Thank You Lord for safe travels. He had a great time and feels like all the things that he heard at Catalyst just confirmed the decisions that we have made in our lives. It was so good to see his wonderful smiling face..........
And then what I call "Re-entry" sets in.....i.e., Life goes on when the other is gone, Macee still poops a lot, smarts off, and wants tickled every other minute, the phone still rings off the hook, and the schedule is still here....Before Chris left, a pal of ours, his car broke down, so as soon as Chris got up this morning he knew that he had to work on his car. Then he had to get a set ready for tomorrow's service, and get the slides etc ready...he is selling 2 motorcycles, and people have been calling about them, the problem is that he wants to "work" on them b/f they come to see the bike on Mon. So lets just say that the whole re-entry thingy has been a little more fun than usual. To top it all of his attitude really stinks....(that's one of those things that I would miss..) So I KINDLY reminded him that I missed him so much, and it was good to have him home, and that I do agree that it does suck to just not get anytime to stop and breath. However, as Donna Rucker said a million times to me: (and now I use all her lines)....your attitude here is a choice. Yes it sucks that you have all this stuff to do, but you can choose to make the best out of the situation. You can make it easier on yourself and those around you if you just choose to make it better....so it went over okay....so then I decided to keep those "absence makes a heart grow fonder feelings" I would leave and let him be....so Jersey girl and I went out. I won't tell you what we did....but we had a blast.....so now I am home, cleaned house, baked some cookies, and Chris is gone yet again...to the church to finish "stuff" for tomorrow.
I suppose I still miss him....but I do thank God for who he is, and how hard he works....I just pray he gets time to slow down.....Jersey girl and the big ouff are coming over to play cards....looking forward to that. Anyhow, I just needed to get my feelings out. I am missing the quiet life right now...but things are good, and as it was well put....I will make a choice to make the best out of it....not like it is hell or something, just a tiny overwhelming...Over all, the big lesson for today children...."Re-entry is never fun, even when you are truly missed"..... Cookie bell is ringing better get them b/f they burn....Adios

Absence makes the heart grow fonder...

I miss my Wesley. I have enjoyed some of our time away, however, I hate not having my best friend to talk to. I always have appreciated him as a father, but when his little girl can't sleep because she wants to see if her daddy is home...he must be doing something right...he is an awesome daddy....but, Yes we fight, yell loud at each other, Yes he drives me nuts at times, yes his farts stink, and he chews loud...but those are all the things that I would (do) miss. Since my mom has been gone, all the times we are separated make me think about what life would be truly like without Chris. It makes me tear up thinking about it. My dad and sister and I would always tease my mom....she always had wadded up tissues everywhere...after she died, those tissues became like finding her in everyday life. At school one day, I was coming in and one of my kids asked me for a tissue, as I reached in my coat, that was her coat, there were her tissues. As I wiped his nose, I cried inside, and thought to myself.....thank you Lord for even wadded up tissues....Anyhow, I just had to say how much I do love Chris, he is my Wesley, and I love him with the very deepest part of my soul....

Sadness in room 125

Well folks, I have very bad news....Sade...the crab...who was really Sam..the crab...is now in crab heaven....He/she was alive and well this morning, however sometime this afternoon went into an eternal sleep...My kids were devastated...we had a viewing...I put tissues folded perfectly in a small box, made a little pillow out of tissues, and laid the crab in there with it's head on the pillow... and turned the lights down and had a small processional. The kids were so sweet, I actually got teary eyed. My little Derrick says "bye Sade, we loved you, you were good to us, we trust you will dream good dreams forever"...pause...."Right Mrs. D...she will dream good dreams...right?"..I said "yes Derrick, she will have good dreams"... My David said..."We loved you so, Sade".....So then the custodian "buried" the crab...in the dumpster...I told the kids that she was taking him to a special place...so I lied a little but...anywho..all joking aside. I love these kids. Each child is special in his/her own way. On the way out one of my kids says..."Mrs. Dilbone, will you marry me?" I said "sure Jacob I will marry you"...so he turns around and says "yes!, I get a wife"! We all laughed so hard. No one has ever been so excited about getting a wife...It will be interesting to hear what he tells his mom about his proposal to his teacher today.
The Lord has been teaching me a lot this week. About what things are really important. It all started Sun. but even today with the death of a silly crab...the Lord through the kids reminds me and teaches me to have the simple faith of a child, Anyhow, I too will have this child-like faith but not only about the small things, the in between thingsbut even about the big things..I am sure you all think that I am a big dork... (nothing new),but all this, all this because of a crab named "Sade". Whatever....