Paint, pain and good times

It's fall finally here in Bg....things are good, for the most part....This past Sat. a couple of my pals came over and we painted...you know who you are...thanks....being a servant to me and my family means more than you will ever know...(hey, do you hear that....:), So we painted for 11 hours straight...3 rooms total, 2 of them with border...it looks great if I can say so myself...what a difference a new ceiling fan, some paint and a little TLC can do for an ole country house....but man was I tired. The funny thing was that all three of us that painted said that out of all the body parts that were sore, it was our butts the most. No...not from sitting on them..we worked dang hard...but that was funny, who thought painting would be a great glute workout ?....
Speaking of workout, I have been to session 2 with my trainer. I went to a class that she teaches...called "Guts and Butts". I was by far the fattest person there...that is hard sometimes, I just remind myself that I am at least working towards not being that person....but the class itself was great. Without going totally into it, it is a total body workout. With cardio, and everything else you could only image. It felt great....until about Friday night. I did not think that I would ever walk like a normal person again. Imagine trying to walk without flexing your hams, calves, or quads....I looked like a tard...
We had our Monday night gathering last night...it feels like family more and more each time. I love it.........
Macee is so cute...I love her to death. She has been saying the funniest things. Her little heart is so compassionate, but strong willed...I pray the Lord takes both of these traits and uses them for his glory. Anyhow, I am off for session 3...if you read this before 7 tonight, pray I get through it, if it is after pray for my legs....I will need it after Jersey girl is done...Adios

stuff

So I hate when I read someone's blog and they are sad or in a funk...I suppose the reason I hate to read it is because I want to fix it and can't. It seems as if there are so many of us that feel "yucky" right now....I wish I could fix it and find myself in conflict because I can't....so I pray.
I sent a card to Rachel today. I love her. Pray for her....she has to make some really hard choices right now and needs wisdom. Please pray for her. Last night on the way home, I started screaming at God about Rach....I just wanted to make sure that he could hear me...it is so heavy on my heart. I find myself thinking about it while I am teaching, I wake up at night to pray for her etc....please hold my arms up and pray with me. I just want the Lords will but I want protection, physically, spiritually and emotionally for all those involved.......
So last night was the first time that I did a "full body" work out with my personal trainer, who is also one of my best friends...it was so awesome. I have not lifted weights in a long time. For a while in high school and college I was really thin and into weights...I realized how much I miss it, and how great it felt afterwards to be that "good" sore...until I had to walk upstairs at school today...at that moment, my calves did not say that it was a "good sore"....so another piece of the pie (no pun intended), in my personal journey to giving every bit of me over to the Lord.
Our "gathering" Monday night was great...everyone had a great time, and it felt like I had family in my house. It was awesome to have everyone packed around the table, in my heart I know that my mom was smiling. I am sure...I know for a fact that she had to feel some proudness...to see people around her table at my house talking about the Lord........tears......I miss her.
I got a call at school yesterday. It was my dad....he said..."what are you doing"....ofcourse I panic....I said "I am working"....he said "wanna go to dinner with your other favorite man"....I thought to myself...well this isn't David Crowder Dad get real...just kidding...so he had to go to a funeral in a town close to us and did not realize how close to bg he would be...so I had supper at my favorite place...Skyline, with my Daddy, my hubby and the cutest little blonde girl in the whole world...it was great....can I just say how pathetic I am....I cried inside and got teary eyed when he left...there is just something about spending time with just him...since my mom has died and my dad remarried our relationship is really different, not bad just different...but when it is just him and Chris and Macee, I am daddy's girl again...I am sure that sound stupid...but I needed that and it felt good....
School is going good....sometimes I wonder if these kids will ever catch on....and then I remember why I began to teach...to make them feel "real" (read the Velveteen rabbit and you'll understand...it's my life story)...so I leave you with this, a snippet from a letter I wrote to Macee but also overflows to my chillins at school:
"What is real"? Ask Rabbit one day..."Does it mean having things that buzz inside of you and a stick out handle"? "Real isn't how you are made, it's a thing that happens to you"."Does it hurt when you are real...?" "Sometimes, said the skin horse, but generally when someone loves you for a really long time, you are real..."
To all my kids...you are real...always and forever...even on the days I forget.....

Nyquil

So now that Macee and I are feeling better, Chris is sick...which never happens....so he needed some Nyquil....I saw him take some, so I decided I needed a swig...or two...my whole body is very warm....I feel very good....I like Nyquil.
On a serious note....Pray, Pray, for God's healing on my cousin Rachels life and body....long story....needs major healing, she is 16...an awesome, most incredible, one of my best pals...she needs a major healing...my uncle is going nuts....I would too...long story like I said...just fast if you can and pray for her.
We were at Skyline...thanks baby, I know you didn't want to go, but I love skyline....and we saw a lady that we used to go to University church with, her husband is now the pastor there. We invited them to "community" on Monday nights. She was eating alone with their 3 year old son...she seemed lonely....I hope they come....Lord bless this time. Make it yours...
I think I should go...I am starting to have a hard time typing..............good night.

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I had no idea for a title...I have a plethra of things to say. I am tired. A good tired. I had a busy day at school, got home and made supper, then fell asleep for about 15 min. and then went and rode my bike for about 5 1/2 miles. To some that does not seem like a lot, however, I was pooped afterwards, I'm not talkin' a nice leisurely ride, I was power peddeling. I always take my boyfriend with me...DCB....someday I will write him and thank him for his words to the music that has kept me going through this part of my journey...
I had a really funny thing happen to me at school yesterday. If you don't know me you wont think that this is funny and may even wonder why I would ever write such a thing, but it is so funny....I have a girl in my class who is Downs syndrome...she is so funny. This is the third year that she has been in my class....so she had a big accident in her pants. And I am not just talking...well so anyhow, we (my teachers aide and I) took her into the changing room and had to help her get cleaned up. So we gave her baby wipes to help...so as she is cleaning up, she starts laughing and says "fun bobo, fun"....(I am bob0)...and for some reason I just lost it and started laughing so hard, that I was crying. I suppose it hit me funny that my teachers aide, my little girl and I where all laughing hysterically about poop...is this where they say "it happens"....I suppose you had to be there.
I had some profound things to say tonight....they have left me...I imagine after the poop story some things wouldn't seem so profound...so I am out of here. see you tomorrow...maybe

What?

So my brother in law commented on my last post...he suggested I whip out the spedo thong and enjoy the weight loss...well enjoy the weight loss yes...wear a thong...no way. I would have to send out a search party to find it at the end of the day...and possibly could start a fire with all the friction a thong could cause...did I just type that...O'my gosh...o well it made me laugh...sorry if you feel like you really want to barf now...
and on to the next note...
A few of you asked what made me smell so good. It is a great combination that I was introduced to by my pal Dannie...it is Freisha Bath and Body Works lotion and Ralph Lauren Blue perfume. And let me tell you. I love it. My parents gave me money for my birthday....I love the Ralph!
So Chris and I are discussing some changes in our lives....not sure how much I really want to go into things...no I am not talking about having more kids...just life in general....what are calling is....what kind of parenting skills we want for Macee...even how to daily run a house and both work full time and then some....The Lord is doing great things in our lives...Why does the pruning hurt so much sometimes? I suppose if it does not hurt we wouldn't remember it as much....Even in times of confliction, I feel the Lord holding my face in his hands, encouraging me. The Lord knows me...he knows what makes me tick. I am so glad for that.
Well we are headed to the great ol' Black Swamp festival with some friends of ours. Looking forward to spending some time with them. It was a productive morning of cleaning like crazy, doing laundry, and some very in depth, at times heated, very important conversations between me and Chris...even though a hate this kind of stuff, it obviously helps us both better understand each other better....so well....off to make up...I mean to put on my make up :)



God bless those with the deep grief of dealing with 9/11...be in prayer for our Nation!

TGIF!

Just a quick note before I leave for school today. I will make it in list form...because I can :)
1. It's Friday! Praise our Lord Jesus!
2. I finally had my 2nd full night of sleep in about 10 days...ahhhh
3. Macee is home sick today...that sucks, but Chris is staying home with her, which means we don't have to ride the extra time to take her all the way to her sitter, which also means I get 32 min. of alone time....which means I will be in a much better mood...I feel bad because my Macee girl is sick but....32 min. of alone time with a loud radio (DCB or country music..not sure yet) will be priceless...
4. I lost 18 pounds in the last 5 weeks, long story but....I look good in this shirt...damn!
5. I like how good I smell. :)
So anyhow, Hope you have a great Friday. All silliness aside, please pray for Macee. Colds are not a nice thing for her little scared lungs....All prayers would be great. Thanks, Have a good one. Adios!

Resting

I have had a few rough nights...I was begging the Lord to heal me....I felt like he was not there....I realized as puke was coming through my nose that I felt in despair...I then realized all this time...he was carrying me. I am now resting in his grace. It feels good..I have found that sweet spot to be held in...Thanks my Lord, my Daddy...I needed that, you are my hero Lord.
For those of you wondering....I did remember to take the crab to school. I had a few people stop and ask why I had the word "carb" written on my hand..only to then tell them that it actually said "crab"...talk about a conversation piece...the kids love her and if Job Knepper is happy, Momma is happy....:)