s.d.v.

So here is Sara Dilbone Version of "What's up with the dilbone's"...

-got an interesting phone call late last night..finally got someone who would be willing to talk...

-was told tomorrow, which is today now, would be Chris's last day to lead worship...

-Chris and I are / were in shock...

-we are ready and willing to leave whenever, just was not ready to be "asked" to be done...was told they are doing us a favor...so much to teach and pass along for Chris on short notice...stressful on the folks who are now taking over...they are newly weds, she is in her first year of teaching and now they have a week to learn the ropes of a detailed position...

-some band members feel confused...

-so hard to process all of this the night before and be okay for church today...cried a lot...

-transition is never easy...even when you feel called to leave...it's not easy when you are told when to leave...

-Chris wanted to be there to bridge the gap for the people taking over, easing the transition, however our involvement with Powerhouse made the "asking" part a little easier.

-am ready for the transition, but love bg naz...having a hard time letting go, God's will or not for us to leave is not the question...it's being asked to leave before we felt it was time, and then saying goodbye...

-so many people, then the band, us (macee and I), and Chris........

Not mad at anyone...just, well...confused...not sure I understand the timing thing...was told the timing just got away...that's cool...like I said, not mad, just in processing mode...not mad at anyone or anything....it's time for us to go...just wish things would of happened a little different...sad....feel loss...but we can always go back and visit...still feel a bit of loss...the thought of people talking about us and not asking us what we think does hurt a little...I truly am not mad...not trying to point fingers...this is just my way to get it all out...sorry if it has to be where people can read it. Like I said, I love bgnaz and the people there...most of them anyway:)...just hating this..the way this has all gone...not just with us but the whole thing...am praying for God to be with all ministries, all situations and be glorified through it all. Not writing this to complain, or be mean, or any other negative way...just having a hard time...am learning what trusting God really means all over again...

Am so very proud of the man of God my wonderful husband has been...up front and honest, real and open...willing to serve and help out, calm and understanding about all of it...honorable when he discusses it with others asking questions, and genuine when praying for Gods blessing on bgnaz...does not feel he "knows" the right way...does feel passionate about our new journey, does NOT condemn those who feel different...thank you Lord for him. For him being the head of this household, and your servant...for him teaching me...pray for us. For bgnaz, for the band....

Pray against gossip, slander and confusion...

Part of the reason for writing this publicly is so that people don't think we just up and left the band and W and H just hangin'. That is not what we are about...tears coming now...pray for us. Thank you bgnaz folks for your love...this part of the journey is the hardest...see you one last time next week...we will be back to visit i'm sure...see ya...

sorry if I stepped on any toes by writing this...that was not my intentions.

Cathy

My friend Cathy (one of my classroom aides) is going through a hard time...please pray for her.

-11 years ago her husband died very suddenly
-she has raised her two kids on her own
-her son was just in a bad car accident Mon. night, totaled his car, doing okay now

-her sister called last night, Cathy's niece Crystal (21 yrs. old), was killed in a very bad car accident...she pulled out in front of a semi....it was awful...

-Cathy's family is from all over the us..they are having trouble getting everyone together for the service...but

-the family is not even sure they can have a service or viewing due to the extreme injuries to Crystals body, as well as no money to pay for the funeral.

They really need our prayers. It is a tough situation, not sure how to help, but I told her my "community" would be praying. Please intercede with me as I try and just be Jesus in some small way...Thanks so much.

Things I am thankful for:
*Heat in my house
*heat in my school (we did not have heat the last 3 days)
*all of my family
*being able to laugh
*being able to laugh a lot.
*little feet
*blonde curls
*a bald headed freak (who is absolutely not going to grow a Crowder...thanks justin and kevin)
*way cool and thoughtful neighbors
*my buddies...i miss you
*my way awesome teachers aide
*self-control
*my salvation
*grace and forgiveness
*both of my sister in laws are expecting...I can't wait...Tina is due in early Dec...we are planning a shower...it will be great to celebrate our new little family addition...I think it's a boy....mmm..or a girl...?
Better go, I hear the beast of a thunder chicken pulling into the drive way....see ya

My sweet little baby girl, my sunshine

So Macee was in a wedding this

weekend. She looked so beautiful.

I was remembering how very tiny she was, what a gift she is...While in her little dress, throwing her head back in laughter, I had glimpse of what the future may hold. I look forward to those days...

At times I wish we could have more children...then I hold her tiny hand, I remember how very tiny her hand was to begin with, the size perhaps of only a quarter, I then look at her hand, and in my hand is a real and walking, full of life, miracle. I feel so blessed to have been chosen to love and take care of her...I am not always very good at it, and after last week, know that I need to slow down our life.

She is my sunshine...But this mom thing is pretty cool. I

just pray I am the mother that the Lord has called me to be.

Enjoy the pics...they make me melt!

funny.....

Life is funny...not always fun, but at times you can look back and laugh.....yesterday one of my fifth grade students had a diarrhea blow out, after a really wet fart...this was before he got on the bus, his mom had already left for work and his older sister told him to go to school no matter what, so he did...poop and all. He is quite a big fellow and like I said he is a fifth grader. So when he came in my teachers aide and I noticed that he smelled really bad...she ask him if he had "dropped the bomb"...he then proceeded to tell her that he had...in his words "crapped his pants"...we also then noticed wetness up the back of his shirt and down his legs...So...we went to the school nurse who always has an extra supply of cloths for kids who possibly would have and accident...however, usually it is not a fifth grader the size of Greg L....(he's not quite that big but close), so we decided to just sit him in his chair and make him promise not to move...my principal, said to call his mom, if it was that bad he would need to be picked up....So, we soon found out that mom was at work and working in a factory it would be really hard for her to leave....so we called his dad...his words were "I duuuun"t carrre"...."It's too bad if he sh@! his pants. I aint comin' to get him"...I wanted to scream at him and tell his stupid dad that he was a jerk and a failure and be mean and say not nice things to him...but inside I wanted to cry too...I felt so bad for my little dude...so I say, "What are we going to do now"....yes folks, the kid had to drop his pants, and my classroom aide and I wiped the nasty diarrhea off his butt, back, legs and every other part that is hard for a chubby fifth grade boy to get to. I then informed him that he would need to throw his underwear away, he said "but these are new"...I said, "well not anymore!"....I then said to him that he would have to go "commando", he's like "cool", " I like going commando".....so anyhow, that was my adventure for the day...I still feel awful about it...the kid comes from a sucky family and I love him like crazy...

Needless to say, those are one of those days where you come home and you feel like crap...:)

Wiping "Boo's" butt: they don't pay me enough

Trying not to gag: not near enough

Laughing about it later: well okay...

Coming home and taking a walk with the bald guy on one side and the sunset on other,

with a little blonde girl on her tiny little bike in front of us,

walking down a county road,

with the wind at your back.... Priceless.

Chili or Pizza?

Still trying to decide what to make for dinner tonight....I think I am looking at the chili side of things but still not sure.....
Good day, glad I am home though.....

Nothing profound to say....just here.

Thinking a lot about life today...

Whew, when does it slow down? Does it?

Miss my mom today. Just need to talk...She would understand. She always did. Wish I had a mom here on earth...although she did teach me a lot while she was here...still...I miss her. I could be an irresponsible kid with her. I miss that. I want to sit and chat, cuddled under an afghan together, eating bryers coffee icecream with dove chocolate hot fudge...like girlfriends would. She was my best friend. We liked to laugh a lot. I still do...I am sure she does, miss doing it together.

Love my little miss Macee, so cute today. Went to bed with a smile in my heart. Tucked her in and felt love so deep for her. How will I do when she is a teenager and acts anything like I did... OMYGOSH!!!!! Thank God for his love.....

Love my bald husband, but miss him. We have been so busy taking care of "things", figuring out what our life "looks" like that we don't get much time for just us. Can't tell you the last time we went out just us....soon...(DCB concert....between the bald guy at my side and the Crowder fu man chu..is it hot in here or is it just me...just thinking about it makes me crazy.....:)

Better go and get that chili going...gotta go grocery shopping tonight...and so any anal person(s) that needs to know what I am planning on making tomorrow night for gathering, I am making spaghetti and meatballs and Kim is bringing salad and bread...any questions, don't call...I don't care what you bring...:)

Adios....

TGIF!

Today in my classroom, I was complaining that I was cold...my little dude, (4th grader who has a stuttering disability) said to me..."why don't you come over here and I will warm you up"....I said out loud to him..."if your first name is not Chris and/or your last name is not Crowder...I can't help you out"...
I am totally obsessed with my daughters tiny little petite precious tender little hands...they are so sweet. May they be the hands of a servant, working for the Lord. May her heart always be tender towards the Lord. I Love her...so so much.
Macee wants to type:
uuuuu uuuuuuuuuuuuuuutrutu5msaceeeeeiiiiii18898yyyyyyyyyyyyyy
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I love dogs. namely Cole Austin Dilbone (some would think this includes David Crowder...Perhaps)
Old Navy is fun.
better go. Friday night is here and we are headed out.
Maybe a good night for another tattoo....

The good, the bad, and the funny...not ugly :)

I am writing this down, so I don't forget...I don't want to miss something I might "appreciate" later....

Things that have been hard for me lately:

*when you think you have a really good idea and your spouse doesn't
*when people think you don't think about anything and just fly into something with your eyes closed.
*not always being able to trust people
*church stuff.

*dumb, ignorant, unthoughtful mean people

*trying not to laugh at school pictures

*unclear communication
*being called a "scott follower"

*having to explain this home church thing to a million people without feeling like I have to be defensive...

*thinking about not being at the naz and seeing people who I love and care about every sunday...is hard for me sometimes...

*people who I think don't always "really" understand me

Things to smile about and maybe even lol about...

*"applejuice"...that was a good one Erica...it made me laugh

*school pictures :)...and yes that made me laugh too

*Choc. chip cookies

*beautiful purple flowers

*stetler baby # 3

*a washer and dryer at my house, and my school, so that I can wash one of my dirtiest kids cloths, so she feels clean and good about herself...wow

*a great email that made me laugh so hard, I had to read it two or three times so I could laugh really hard again and again.

*yes, David Crowder is a hottie...and I want to play with his fu man Chou...

*our neighbors are so awesome...

*thinking of doing this house church thing "along side" of s and k and lots of other folks that share the same vision...cool

*knowing that I don't hate the organized church and see how both settings can bring people to Christ...

*wusbag.......

*friendships that stand the test of time.

*intense phone calls that turn out good

*two really good buddies...(we need a code name) that know me and still love me unconditionally...I hope you two know who I am talking about...purple flowers and jogging telephone poles, great sign language lessons...and hmmm I really want to say a bad word...for doody...but just...well I won't say it...hopefully you got my numba...

*fall leaves, colors, cloths

*living in the country

*Lars"er" and Mary and the Wisp...thanks for being such loving and kind, Christ driven people who are being the church, just being themselves. You are all three loved deeply. I don't tell you enough...

*two sweet little girls playing together....

*my salvation

*my classroom aide, and the rest of the crew

*prayer time

*the new DCB cd...is awesome

enough already...better go.

Wow...I love this new computer!

Hello blogger world...the dilbone house now has a new and improved up and running computer....I love it. I have missed getting my feelings out and feel great getting the time to do it today. Chris and Macee are on their way to the neighbors, Chris will work out, Macee is on her way to play with her buddy Madison. They are such way cool neighbors, the Lord is really blessing us with a great and growing relationship with them....more to come on that topic....
So much on my mind lately, so many things going on....so list form blog...here I come...
*October...my favorite month...I love pumpkins, beautiful tress, hot cider and the smell of cinnamon...cuddles and crisp air at night....and hot soups for supper.
*school is good, lots of mental and emotional work this year, more than normal, I feel emotionally spent at the end of the day. The kids are so needy this year. Lots of good times and laughter, lots of yelling and redirection...ahhh, but good.
*crazy church stuff...people who you always thought would support you, don't...back biting and terrible things said about loved ones to folks in the community...very hard for me...I want to defend my friends, the Lord is keeping my mouth shut...regardless, why is it okay for people to to say such harsh things and perpetuate negativity....I hate this part of all of this. Looking forward though to things to come, think Joel and Jen are going to be great...pray for them in this time of transition....
*I love fall.
*Macee, I love her...she is so darn cute, growing sooo much, having a hard time keeping up with her long legs....every outfit... I thought would fit this year...Doesn't. Chris thinks it is okay to just have 3 outfits that we can just rotate....Whatever....(I think that is what he does with his underwear...o' and you'll have to ask him about his "euro boxers"....hahahahaha).
*Today would have been my parents 35 wedding anniversary...Oddly enough it is also Chris's parents 35 wedding anniversary. Our parents got married the same day, same year, about 2 hours apart...pray for my dad today. This has been a hard day for him in the past and I am sure was difficult for him today.
*I love my sister
*sat. nights listening to Chris at cosmos...where it is really warm and cozy inside....
*missing my jersey girl and crew....life changes, friendships change...it sucks...miss you jg....
*changed my classroom around today...it looks great, the girls are going to freak...good, I hope they do...:)
*making chili for supper
Enough for now but,
Pray for my aunt, she has cancer, is taking cemo...this stuff sucks....her name is Amy. She is a believer and is trusting the Lord....she is awesome...pray for her family. She has an amazing hubby and 4 great kids....
adios.